Things Are Winding Down (Or Starting To)

The end of the spring semester is a month away and I have so much left to do before then. Scary stuff, man scary stuff. I think I'll be able to handle it when the time comes, but I don't know if I can handle thinking about it right now. I have a lot on my mind as it is--I'm working on sorting out paperwork for the AICAD program at school so that I can try to spend a semester away in Florida or California, I have homework, there's apparently a lot of drama back at home right now, I am still dealing with something that shouldn't be a guy problem here in MA but is still bothering me anyway and it's just all aughhh.

Part of me just wants this year to end already and another part of me doesn't ever want it to: I shouldn't be, but I'm really scared about one of my closer friends. He's a senior and he's graduating this semester. It's not like he's moving to the other side of the world any time soon, and he's still likely to be living in Boston as his room mates are still in school, but he's one of those people I can't imagine never having met. I'm really worried that I'm going to lose contact with him and I don't want to. I've told him all this already, but...I'm not sure if he fully got it. He doesn't seem to fully understand that he's someone I actually care about, even after telling him this already...

That whole worrying goes for some of my dorm mates in my dorm this year. Room lottery is coming up tomorrow night and some of them are planning on living in the other set of dorms while some of my friends and I are planning on living closer to main campus. It's true that I can go visit them, but it would be a lot harder in between homework and knowing way too many freaking people. I'm sure that this will sort itself out next year, so I'm not going to freak out too badly over it, but still...OI VEY. 

Growing up is totally coming back to bite me in the butt. I think I'm starting to hate it.